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still recovering from the shocking news yesterday nite... still hoping that it was an april fools joke that u make early this year... but i guess it is not a joke as i can see that u r worried and had loads of things for u to think it thru... i know it is hard for u, in fact very hard becoz there're many barrier for you, for example language, but u know u r a fast learner n i know in just a matter of time u can over come it well.... no matter wat is ur final decision, i will be here to support u .. i dunwan to be the one who make it difficult for u, as u said to me:" this is for our future!!!" ...

I love u...!!!

~迷失方向，lost ~

最近，我好乱。。好像一只迷途羔羊一的迷失了方向。。。我真的不知道我下一步该怎么办？我越来越觉得这一份工作，不再适合我 还是我还不习惯这里工作的环境呢？？ 我真的不知道 。。。总觉得在这间公司很没安全感。。。好怀念以前的公司和同事。。。我还能回去吗？这问题我还不能确定，我还在等着消息。。！！！好希望这槽投的感觉能赶快离开我。。！！！

feels so lost recently... really dunno wat will be my next step or wat will i do.... i started to hate my job very much, i dun feel like i'm capable at all already OR i'm still getting used to this company culture... i reall dunno.. but i hate coming back to this office... people is good here but not the working environment and the system... boss starting to pressure me to go out and search for new clientele (but wat i remember that, when i sign my agreement that time, searching for new client is not part of my job scope but is his. He told me that only after 2 years he will expect me to get new client into this company, but i'm only in this company for 8months) Ok i understand economy now is bad, so everyone is suffering and next year will be worse. The worse part is he wanted me to get client to do TVC.... c'mmon la... company that can afford TVC will be big company and mostly big company are all attached with big international agency... wat do u wanna me to do.. steal account from my previous ex agency... i dun think i can do it... wat type of profile i can present to client that gonna convince them to do TVC with us, NONE... we are strong in BTL but not ATL... and my boss dare to come n tell me he dunwan to me to pitch for BTL becoz if BTL he got plenty of it dy....damn it...!!!! Aaarrgggggghhhhhh... i can't stand it anymore la.....!!!!! i'm waiting for my ex-company to reply me.... they are the one who come back n counter offer me back, when everything goes smoothly and got confirmed, suddenly the economy have to be so bad until my application needs to put on hold till further notice.... f**k man .... i hate this situation n i hate everything right now.....

~ emo V ~

我。。。还好吗？

好久好久没来这里了。。。好久没有在这里写下我的心情了。。。我。。。还好吗？？？ 答案是：我很好。。。！！！ 我觉得我变了，面对感情的事，我会以冷静和成熟的方式去处理。。 偶尔的挣执是在所难免，可是我们都学会了如何去处理。。。难到这是证明了我们的感情升华到另一个节段了吗？？？ 但愿是如此。。。！！

盈