~ cry baby ~

i damn malu today at work... can;t imagine i actually cry becoz of stress and pressure... but suprisingly after crying, i feel more relief and more semangat to work again... maybe this kind of release stress way is suitable for me... i know some might said i'm so weak tat i can't even handle pressure and stress... but just for your information i'm alone here doin at least 3 people job and i'm handling at least 5 clients n the work load for each account is f**king alot okay... i dun have any assistant or senior people to guide me, i do it all ALONE.. so i dun care what people will say about me of not being capable on handling stress or even pressure, but i think that i've done my best and i'm pushing my limit dy... i understand is not easy to survive in this industry but at least be fair to me, no one is superwoman or superman here... everyone have their own limit on doing certain things, at least i know i have a limit, i know i can;t produce more work or good work quality, if the situation continue to be the same... i've hinted my boss few times that i've reach my limit, but she just keep on adding resposibility to me and i know i can;t handle it anymore... so what is my next step..??? continue pushing myself to the edge or just give up and run away...i really dunno, but what i know is there's an agency is interested to talk to me about job opportunity, so i guess there's a new route for my career advancement... hopefully everythinhg goes well...
anyway take care everyone, dun over stress urself like me...

with luv, xoxo
Vicky

update on me

Few things happen recently, first of all is my work. I've been working all alone for the past one month, no one helping at all just me myself and I handling 1 superheavy work load account and 3 ok work load account, so i guess my boss think tat i'm a superwomen or she thinks that i'm too free in the office, then she decided to add on one more superheavy work load account for me... Yeah~~~~ i'm going to die real soon. At this moment i already have difficulty in breathing, so i guess i'm goin to suffocate very very soon. hmmmm... god please send me a good assistant to help me...!!!!!!
Someone told me recently that i have lower tolerance level and also very short temper...hmmm it actually make me wonder for a while... did i really change without me noticing it... i really dunno.. but what i know is everytime when i tot is a sunny day but in de end it will turn out to be a thunder + heavy rain nite...maybe i'm goin thru a monsoon season but definately i dun mean to hurt anyone close to me, tat's the least i wanna do... so i'm taking this opportunity to apologize to those i have accidentally hurt or cause pain in their heart, i really really dun mean it... Please forgive me.. i know is been a rough ride but i promis u tat it will soon to be over and it will goes back to the normal clear blue sea ok... please gimme sometime to calm the wave...
Last but not least.. i love you guys n my baby too..... take care...

love xoxo
Vicky