好久不见

哇。。好久没在这里留言了。。是太忙还是太懒，我也分不清楚了。。。

不过，最近生活上有一点乱七八糟的。。。哎，好烦啊。。。！！

无辜

无端端被人生气，真的好怨枉。。。本来是好心情也变成坏透了。。。妈的！！！

永远是我不对， 看着戏，电话没接是我的错。。。这是什么道理。。！！！

害你没晚餐吃也是我的错。。。 永远是我的错。。。

你开心吗！！！ 因为永远你都是对的。。。

前路茫茫

前面的路好摸糊。。。我好像走错了方向。。。可惜，找不到回头路。。。我应该如何。。。

难道，真的会有柳暗花明，又一村出现吗。。。？？？

.....

still recovering from the shocking news yesterday nite... still hoping that it was an april fools joke that u make early this year... but i guess it is not a joke as i can see that u r worried and had loads of things for u to think it thru... i know it is hard for u, in fact very hard becoz there're many barrier for you, for example language, but u know u r a fast learner n i know in just a matter of time u can over come it well.... no matter wat is ur final decision, i will be here to support u .. i dunwan to be the one who make it difficult for u, as u said to me:" this is for our future!!!" ...

I love u...!!!

~迷失方向，lost ~

最近，我好乱。。好像一只迷途羔羊一的迷失了方向。。。我真的不知道我下一步该怎么办？我越来越觉得这一份工作，不再适合我 还是我还不习惯这里工作的环境呢？？ 我真的不知道 。。。总觉得在这间公司很没安全感。。。好怀念以前的公司和同事。。。我还能回去吗？这问题我还不能确定，我还在等着消息。。！！！好希望这槽投的感觉能赶快离开我。。！！！

feels so lost recently... really dunno wat will be my next step or wat will i do.... i started to hate my job very much, i dun feel like i'm capable at all already OR i'm still getting used to this company culture... i reall dunno.. but i hate coming back to this office... people is good here but not the working environment and the system... boss starting to pressure me to go out and search for new clientele (but wat i remember that, when i sign my agreement that time, searching for new client is not part of my job scope but is his. He told me that only after 2 years he will expect me to get new client into this company, but i'm only in this company for 8months) Ok i understand economy now is bad, so everyone is suffering and next year will be worse. The worse part is he wanted me to get client to do TVC.... c'mmon la... company that can afford TVC will be big company and mostly big company are all attached with big international agency... wat do u wanna me to do.. steal account from my previous ex agency... i dun think i can do it... wat type of profile i can present to client that gonna convince them to do TVC with us, NONE... we are strong in BTL but not ATL... and my boss dare to come n tell me he dunwan to me to pitch for BTL becoz if BTL he got plenty of it dy....damn it...!!!! Aaarrgggggghhhhhh... i can't stand it anymore la.....!!!!! i'm waiting for my ex-company to reply me.... they are the one who come back n counter offer me back, when everything goes smoothly and got confirmed, suddenly the economy have to be so bad until my application needs to put on hold till further notice.... f**k man .... i hate this situation n i hate everything right now.....

~ emo V ~

我。。。还好吗？

好久好久没来这里了。。。好久没有在这里写下我的心情了。。。我。。。还好吗？？？ 答案是：我很好。。。！！！ 我觉得我变了，面对感情的事，我会以冷静和成熟的方式去处理。。 偶尔的挣执是在所难免，可是我们都学会了如何去处理。。。难到这是证明了我们的感情升华到另一个节段了吗？？？ 但愿是如此。。。！！

盈

~ Happy Birthday to ME ~

Although is over, but i have a great birthday this year... Thanks to my baby n all my friends.... I love you guys so much....





xoxo

Yin

~ stay away, 距离 ~

太多不好的情绪埋常在我心里，我开始乱了，我开始慌了。。。我不能好好去思考。。。我需要冷静，需要空间去好好想一想。。。 不要靠近我，我不想把我的情绪和愤怒，爆发在我疼爱和珍惜的人。。。请给我一些时间，我想要和我自己一个人好好谈一谈。。。对不起！！！

too many negative emotion is in me, i'm starting to get out of the way, i'm starting to loose myself... i cannot think properly now... i need to cool down, i need some space for me to think.... please stay away from me, i dunwan to hurt anyone that i care so much for, by me bursting out any unnessacery comment or complaint... i need to be alone, i just wanna talk to myself... i'm so sorry !!!

~ happiness, 快乐 ~

怎样才算叫快乐 - 是人家给的吗？ 还是自己争取的？

what happiness - izzit a feeling that someone give it to you ? or, you should go and fight for it?

~ 下一个天亮 = wait until the next sunrise ~

This is a very nice song from this girl called 郭静 claire.

下一个天亮

用起伏的背影 擋住哭泣的心
有些故事 不必說給 每個人聽
許多眼睛 看的太淺太近
錯過我沒被看見 那個自己

用簡單的言語 解開超載的心
有些情緒 是該說給 懂的人聽
你的熱淚 比我激動憐惜
我發誓要更努力 更有勇氣

等下一個天亮 去上次牽手賞花那裡散步好嗎
有些積雪會自己融化
你的肩膀是我豁達的天堂

等下一個天亮 把偷拍我看海的照片送我好嗎
我喜歡我飛舞的頭髮
和飄著雨還是眺望的眼光

時間可以磨去我的稜角
有些堅持卻永遠磨不掉
請容許我 小小的驕傲
因為有你這樣的依靠

p/s: I love u

~ i just wanna hold ur hand till de end of time ~

Never for once:

never for once think that i wanna you to spend all ur time with me

never for once think that i wanna you to change drasticly to suit me

never for once think i wanna stop u from pathing ur way for a better future

never for once think that i just know how to complaint about things i dislike

Please keep in mind:

i'm just a normal human being that has emotion and will blast it out when i can't take it

i will do anything to support whatever u need to do

i will stand behind you, when u turn around u will know tat i will be there waiting for u

i just wanna hold ur hand till the end of time

last but not least - i love u so so much...!!!!

~ 理性与感性~

很多人都说女人是用水做的。因为，她们给人的感觉是脆弱和不堪一击。。。可是， 我认为如果一个女人要坚强起来是不会输给一个男人的。。。在感性与理性之间， 我是属于感性的人。 很多时候，我败给了我的感性而导致了许多不必要的争吵和问题。 想象力丰富的我，也导致了许多不必要的假设性的状况。在感性与理性之间， 我必需找到一个平衡点。。。

她问他：“如果，要你从这一班女性朋友里面，拿出她们的优点，然后在拼出一个女朋友。 你会怎样拼？”
他说：“我要你的眼，鼻子、嘴巴和面型要和盈的一样。皮肤呢，就要想琪的一样百嫩。 然后，内在呢我要她的坚强，而我要盈的包容、谅解、不顾一切的付出和对我那一种不离不舍的精神。”

他是一个很理性的人而我是一个很感性的人。。。然而，在茫茫人海里， 他遇见了我，我遇见了他。。。 我们的爱情故事就是这样开始了。。。。

~ 恍然大悟 / Realize ~

我刚刚和一位朋友通了个电话, 当我们聊完了我才恍然大悟的明白到我是一个多么戏剧话的人...她跟我说真实人的感情世界是不能拿戏剧或爱情小说的情节来当比较.当她说完这一句话,我好像是给她当头敲了一棒的醒了起来...她说的很对,我很想像爱情小说里的女主角.可是,原来这个可能性是接进0%.因为,真实人的感情世界是充满了许多问题. 因为,我的天真和无知带给了我们的感情世界许多不必要的挣吵. 我想和你说声对不起!!! 在你为你的梦想和未来打拼的时候,我的天真和无知带给了你不必要的烦恼, 对不起宝贝!!! 我明白到我们的感情以经步进了成熟的阶段,甜言蜜语以经不许要表面化了. 内心的关怀和行动上的支持是最重要的.宝贝,我总于明白了....!!!虽然,是有点迟啦.可是,我总于恍然大悟了!!!!

After chatting with my friend, only i notice how naive and childish i can be when it comes to relationship. i guess i have to stop watching all those taiwan series, when they always have a perfect guy that do the rite thing at the rite time. My friend make me realize alot of thing today, and finally i notice all those unnessacery urguement with u, is because of my childish behaviour. i care too much on how u care about me, for example like why didn;t u ask me how's my day at work or even just send me a sms asking how am i, but when u actually show it in other way. i'm too blind to see all this thing tat u have done for me.our relantioship has enter to a different kind of level, whereas i still wanted to stay at the begining stage of our relationship. i know i have created many unnessacery problem for you, while u are now concerntrating on ur career and future, i'm so sorry baby. i always tot tat i'm very understanding and all but it turns out to be i'm de one who's giving u nonsense problem which u dun expect from me and I should be one who to give u the lesser problem as possible. Baby, i finally understant it and i know is quite late for me to understand the thing tat u have been telling me all the while, but well i finally REALIZE..!!!

p.s: I love u

~ 你好吗? ~

"你好吗" 是一句简单又贴心的问候. 可是, 要是对的人在对的时候问, 那就会有更好的效果...但是,为什么你就是不会问我呢? 为什么就是你感觉不出来我想你问一问我今天过的好吗?... 为什么,好像只有我一个人每一天会问你过的好吗? 我知道你说过你关心我的方式是不一样, 因为你说你不是个普通的人,可是我真的好想有时候你会变成一个普通的男朋友...我好想我不开心的时候得到你的慰问而不是听到你和我说道理, 我好想在我发脾气的时候你能让一让我而不是你瞪眼看着我.. 我也好想和你说,我也会有无理取闹的时候.可是,我知道你非常讨厌无理取闹的人, 所以我学会尝试去压抑自己的情绪...可是,有时我真的好想放纵一下,你会让我吗?你会体谅我吗? 而你会来看我的部落格吗? 就算你不懂华文,你会尝试去了解吗? 你会想办法去明白我想说的东西吗? 还是,你会感到厌恶我又在部落格写下我想说的感觉... 可是,因该都无所为吧? 因为,你是不会读我的部落格的!!!! 可是,我还是想对你说: p/s, I Love U...

~ 心情好闷 ~

不知为何, 我的心情突然变的好闷... 以经好久没有这种感觉了... 为何它会忽然来侵袭我呢???? 我不因该会有这样的心情的啊...!!!! 好奇怪...!!! 难到,它是想给我一些预告有些事就要发生了....??? 还是,我的过敏疹又会来了...咳~~~~ 这种心情真槽槁...!!!

~ p.s I Love You ~

this is the 1st movie that makes me cry like a baby... i cry almost every scene when holly read gerry letter to her... i love this movie... and to my luv...

p/s: I Love You... :)

~ 理所当然 ~

昨晚和朋友谈天, 忽然聊到关于男女之间的事... 以下是我们的对话:

朋友: 我是不能容忍我的男友在我面前和其它人过度亲热... 就算他们是很要好的朋友,也不能在这麽多人面前当我是透明的... 那是很不尊重我.. 我不能接受...

我: 哈哈... 我以经麻木了.. 这就是他啊.. 改变不了的习惯...不然,你要我这么办....

朋友: 你应该要让他明白, 这是不好受的感觉啊... 给他知道, 这是一种尊重. 他这样做,外面的人会这样看你和他...

我: 唉...他是不会理回人家对他的看发的啦...对他来说, 最重要是我能够了解.. 那就够了...

朋友: 喂... 你的火和脾气到底去了那里... 你以前不是这样子的...

我 : 哈哈.. 我也觉得很奇怪啊... 可能, 是报应吧...

朋友: 可是, 这样讲还是说不过去啦... 难到你不会妒嫉吗??? 你不想要让他知道,你的感受吗?

我: 嫉妒...??? 好久没有了这种感觉... 以经忘了嫉妒是这样的感觉... 或则我是不敢吧...因为太了解他了, 知道他是个这样的男人.所以,以经学会不去做会让他反感的事情... 我会尽量去配合... 哈哈, 我知道我以经变了, 太多人和我说过,我不是以前的丽盈了..可能,爱一个人真的会改变吧.... 或许是我太过爱他了吧...每一个人的牺牲程度都不一样吧..我以经学会不去记交谁爱的比交多谁爱的比交少... 我知想要他过的开心而我不会是他的包袱... 我只是想做那个当他须要一个人来给他依靠和温暖的人... 哈哈.. 你应该很吓到吧.....

朋友: 你好力害, 真佩服你...!!! 你真的是一个"为仔死,为仔亡"的苯女人....

我: 习惯成自然吗...!!!

朋友: 我是怕他以经当成你所做的东西是理所当然的事了....

理所当然 - 他有吗 ? 可能吧!!! 他会珍惜我所做的事情吗? 会吧!!! 那他爱我吗? 爱!!! 可是,爱一个人真的要牺牲和改变的那么多吗? 这我也不知道........ 不如,你来帮我回答吧......

~ 16 months ~

Dear you,

Its been 16month we're together, many things happen in between - arguement, break up, back together...we learn from each other, we learn to be more flexible, understanding and our relationship grew more mature and stronger from time to time... i would like to take this opportunity to say Thank You to you, Thanks for:-
o feeding me medicine, when i say something really stupid ;p
o taking care of me
o coming all the way from cheras to take me out for lunch
o holding my hand so tight although we have fall asleep
o making me the special girl in your life
o listening to all my stupid complaint that happen in de office
o supoprting me in many many ways
o your advise whenever i need it
o spending your time with me
o all the small small thing you do for me, although i know you dun like to mention about it but i know it...
o last but not least, thanks for loving me
So i would like to wish us both happy 16 month anniversary, I LOVE YOU...!!!



給我你的愛
Gei Wo Ni De Ai
Give Me Your Love

Artist: TANK


等待　一點一滴　你對我感到安心
Deng dai yi dian yi di ni dui wo gan dao an xin
Wait bit by bit [until] you can feel at ease toward me

感覺　朋友關係　有了新的默契
Gan jue peng you guan xi you le xin de mo qi
Feelings, in regards to friendship, a new silent understanding has developed

便利商店裡　誰也買不到
Bian li shang dian li shei ye mai bu dao
[The things] Inside the convenience store, who can’t afford to buy?

我們最想要的東西　只握在　喜歡的人手上
Wo men zui xiang yao de dong xi zhi wo zai xi huan de ren shou shang
The thing that we want the most is held in the hands of the one we like

給我你的愛　讓我陪著你去未來
Gei wo ni de ai rang wo pei zhe ni qu wei lai
Give me your love, let me walk together with you to see tomorrow [the future]

給我你的愛　手拉著手　不放開
Gei wo ni de ai shou la zhe shou bu fang kai
Give me your love, hands holding hands, never let go

就算宇宙爆炸　海水都蒸發
Jiu suan yu zhou bao zha hai shui doi zheng fa
Even if the universe explodes, the ocean evaporates

只願你的記憶裡　有我的擁抱
Zhi yuan ni de ji yi li you wo de yong bao
My only wish is that you’ll have my embrace in your memory

我的　最大幸褔　是發現了我愛你
Wo de zui da xing fu shi fa xian le wo ai ni
My greatest joy is to find out that I love you

靈魂　有了意義　
Ling hun you le yi yi
My soul now has meanings

用每一天珍惜
Yong mei yi tian zhen xi
To cherish each day

便利商店裡　誰也買不到
Bian li shang dian li shei ye mai bu dao
[The things] Inside the convenience store, who can’t afford to buy?

我們最想要的東西　只握在　喜歡的人手上
Wo men zui xiang yao de dong xi zhi wo zai xi huan de ren shou shang
The thing that we want the most is held in the hands of the one we like

給我你的愛　讓我陪著你去未來
Gei wo ni de ai rang wo pei zhe ni qu wei lai
Give me your love, let me walk together with you to see tomorrow [the future]

給我你的愛　手拉著手　不放開
Gei wo ni de ai shou la zhe shou bu fang kai
Give me your love, hands holding hands, never let go

就算宇宙爆炸　海水都蒸發
Jiu suan yu zhou bao zha hai shui doi zheng fa
Even if the universe explodes, the ocean evaporates

只願你的記憶裡　有我的擁抱
Zhi yuan ni de ji yi li you wo de yong bao
My only wish is that you’ll have my embrace in your memory

雨和天空也有　相愛的可能
Yu he tian kong ye you xiang ai de ke neng
The rain and the sky also have the possibility to fall in love

望著妳的微笑　情不自禁
Wang zhe ni de wei xiao qing bu zi jin
Gazing at your smile makes me lose myself

給我你的愛　讓我陪著你去未來
Gei wo ni de ai rang wo pei zhe ni qu wei lai
Give me your love, let me walk together with you to see tomorrow [in this context it means the future]

給我你的愛　手拉著手　不放開
Gei wo ni de ai shou la zhe shou bu fang kai
Give me your love, hands holding hands, never let go

就算宇宙爆炸　海水都蒸發
Jiu suan yu zhou bao zha hai shui doi zheng fa
Even if the universe explodes, the ocean evaporates

只願你的記憶裡　有我的擁抱
Zhi yuan ni de ji yi li you wo de yong bao
My only wish is that you’ll have my embrace in your memory

~ Finally my letter got accepted ~

Finally, my lady boss has come to her senses and let me go... Yeah... she finally accept my resignation letter, after being rejected for few hundred times and today is the day she told me to pass her the letter... this issue has been dragged for almost 1 month and finally i'm able to leave leave leave.... hahaha... i'm so happy and i wanna share with everyone and especially you, but i guess for u is nothing much to celebrate, hmmm is ok... i have to deal with it rite... but anyway, my lady boss is so bad that she cursed me that i will be damn bloody fat... SO MEAN LER... hehehe, but still I FINALLY QUIT...!!!!!!!!!!!!!


me and my god-father "Ah Low"

~ cry baby ~

i damn malu today at work... can;t imagine i actually cry becoz of stress and pressure... but suprisingly after crying, i feel more relief and more semangat to work again... maybe this kind of release stress way is suitable for me... i know some might said i'm so weak tat i can't even handle pressure and stress... but just for your information i'm alone here doin at least 3 people job and i'm handling at least 5 clients n the work load for each account is f**king alot okay... i dun have any assistant or senior people to guide me, i do it all ALONE.. so i dun care what people will say about me of not being capable on handling stress or even pressure, but i think that i've done my best and i'm pushing my limit dy... i understand is not easy to survive in this industry but at least be fair to me, no one is superwoman or superman here... everyone have their own limit on doing certain things, at least i know i have a limit, i know i can;t produce more work or good work quality, if the situation continue to be the same... i've hinted my boss few times that i've reach my limit, but she just keep on adding resposibility to me and i know i can;t handle it anymore... so what is my next step..??? continue pushing myself to the edge or just give up and run away...i really dunno, but what i know is there's an agency is interested to talk to me about job opportunity, so i guess there's a new route for my career advancement... hopefully everythinhg goes well...
anyway take care everyone, dun over stress urself like me...

with luv, xoxo
Vicky