前路茫茫

前面的路好摸糊。。。我好像走错了方向。。。可惜，找不到回头路。。。我应该如何。。。

难道，真的会有柳暗花明，又一村出现吗。。。？？？

~迷失方向，lost ~

最近，我好乱。。好像一只迷途羔羊一的迷失了方向。。。我真的不知道我下一步该怎么办？我越来越觉得这一份工作，不再适合我 还是我还不习惯这里工作的环境呢？？ 我真的不知道 。。。总觉得在这间公司很没安全感。。。好怀念以前的公司和同事。。。我还能回去吗？这问题我还不能确定，我还在等着消息。。！！！好希望这槽投的感觉能赶快离开我。。！！！

feels so lost recently... really dunno wat will be my next step or wat will i do.... i started to hate my job very much, i dun feel like i'm capable at all already OR i'm still getting used to this company culture... i reall dunno.. but i hate coming back to this office... people is good here but not the working environment and the system... boss starting to pressure me to go out and search for new clientele (but wat i remember that, when i sign my agreement that time, searching for new client is not part of my job scope but is his. He told me that only after 2 years he will expect me to get new client into this company, but i'm only in this company for 8months) Ok i understand economy now is bad, so everyone is suffering and next year will be worse. The worse part is he wanted me to get client to do TVC.... c'mmon la... company that can afford TVC will be big company and mostly big company are all attached with big international agency... wat do u wanna me to do.. steal account from my previous ex agency... i dun think i can do it... wat type of profile i can present to client that gonna convince them to do TVC with us, NONE... we are strong in BTL but not ATL... and my boss dare to come n tell me he dunwan to me to pitch for BTL becoz if BTL he got plenty of it dy....damn it...!!!! Aaarrgggggghhhhhh... i can't stand it anymore la.....!!!!! i'm waiting for my ex-company to reply me.... they are the one who come back n counter offer me back, when everything goes smoothly and got confirmed, suddenly the economy have to be so bad until my application needs to put on hold till further notice.... f**k man .... i hate this situation n i hate everything right now.....

~ emo V ~

~ enough is enough ~

i think i have reach my limit again... either i'm too stupid and dumb to handle my job or my client is stupid... it seem i can't convey my msg to her and she is trying too hard to show me she knows everything... but is ok, cause i have slowly given up hope... the flexibiliy in this agency is good but the working style suck big time, no system, no resources, lack of man-power and etc.... but is ok, cause i have slowly giving up too... I dun think i'm being an ass complaining because i never excepted that it will be like this... I never tot that i'm goin to deal with so many thing that actually out of my job scope expectation, but the good side of it is i learn new things which help me in the future... But i guess i have to move on to a place i'm more comfortable, even if is dealing with the same shit again but with better resources and man-power... i give my best and chance in this agency but i guess is just not rite...

so ENOUGH is ENOUGH...!!!!

~ My new frenz ~

is been almost 2 weeks i started my new job... still trying to adapt the culture here... but everything seem to be goin smoothly, so i guess it is a good start for me... working here is very much relaxing in terms of working time, there's no actual or should i say a proper timing to come into the office, beside Suki - our office tai ka jie, who help us to maintain the office from admin to account and she is only 19 this year, but she is very "seng mook" and "jing ling", she will be in de office at 9am. The second person to reached office at 9.30am, would be our art director low - he is a funny guy, very thin and love to drink and also like to "kap lui". Then the 3rd person to be in the office will be me, between 10am - 10.30am. So now u can imagine how relax can it be, somemore can beat the traffic, so wonderful ler... hahaha.. But in term of the working process, it is still very messy. No systems in organizing the job distribution and most of the things that client want is very rush... but i'm slowly working on the system to implement it, hopefully it works...

Anyway yesterday nite is the 1st time i go out to have dinner and drinking session with my new colleague (to celebrate my boss and my copy writer bday).. we had so much of fun in the chinese restourant, the place is having a wedding function and guess what type of music they put..."TECHNO", we were like laughing and there's a aunty/ entertainer sing on the stage (typical chinese wedding), and guess wat she's wearing, a full gold + glitter dress and later she went and change to a full red bra top dress.. we was like WTF and al the song tat she sing is all techno remix version... after the TECHNO dinner, we went to red bar in kota damansara, haih~~ another crappy place, loads of old fart and ugly PR girls entertaining the MALE customer... But wat to do, my bosses like to hang out in this kind of place so have to folllow lo, but if i have a chance to orgazine a nite out, i will definately bring them to see places where full of hot chic muhahahahaha... on another hand, i'm suck a suck drinker, 3 glass and i'm high...luckily charles came and rescue me, but he is high too (he come from No Black Tie event) ... but overall, it was a great nite out and i hope that i have break the ice between all of them...


The Techno Dinner Place




Ben (my Boss) Peace Pose

~ Bonus e-lek ~

Bonus e-lek = no bonus.... open my office mail today and got a mail from finance stating that bonus is out today and has already bank into the account... me being a happy bunny faster log into maybank2u.com and check the amount... but.... there's no extra $$... then only i found out, because i've resigned dy so i'm not entitle for the bonus... damn sad .... haih~~~ :(

~ Finally my letter got accepted ~

Finally, my lady boss has come to her senses and let me go... Yeah... she finally accept my resignation letter, after being rejected for few hundred times and today is the day she told me to pass her the letter... this issue has been dragged for almost 1 month and finally i'm able to leave leave leave.... hahaha... i'm so happy and i wanna share with everyone and especially you, but i guess for u is nothing much to celebrate, hmmm is ok... i have to deal with it rite... but anyway, my lady boss is so bad that she cursed me that i will be damn bloody fat... SO MEAN LER... hehehe, but still I FINALLY QUIT...!!!!!!!!!!!!!


me and my god-father "Ah Low"